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My body has no bones today. Three and a half hours of the best sex I've ever had in my life.

I've already been to work once today. Angela went skating last night and broke two ribs, so they were left with only one lunch server. I went in for two hours. I'm supposed to be napping now since I have to be back at five to work my own shift, but I can't sleep. I've been laying here curled around my pillows and purring.

Meghan made me breakfast when I went in. I just realized that. I'm going to have to tell her when I go back.

"I have a confession," she said last night. "When I told you we should be just friends, I knew I was in love with you and it scared the shit out of me. I wasn't worrying about work or anything like that. I was just scared."

(Also, this is a co-worker!Meghan and Sammi picture and I look stupid in it, but hey. A picture we're both in.)

Entry. I promised an entry.

I spent the night at Meghan's last night. We can only see each other outside of work when her roommate's not around - she also works for Steak n Shake and she's sort of unpredictable, so telling her at this point would be dangerous. It's frustrating that we see each other 4-5 times a week, but hardly ever outside of work, but the stolen moments more than make up for it.

Especially since I know how eager she is to move into a place of her own.

She's going to another store in December. She originally told me that they asked her to transfer, but it came out last week that she asked them for the transfer. (I asked her when she decided to transfer. "When I knew I couldn't just be friends with you." When did she know that? "Before I told you we should be just friends.")

This information came out during our date, which was the most romantic night of my life. Seriously. She held doors for me, and she had a rose waiting for me in her fridge when we got back from the movie. She didn't sleep all night, but she held me while I did. We had a lot of discussions about things we should and shouldn't do until December. Things like sex - if we're sleeping together, is that going to make it better or worse to have to play it cool so much of the time?

I told her, as far as sex goes, it's going to be hard either way. It probably didn't help that I was straddling her while we had this conversation, considering the fact we only reached a conclusion when her right hand slid up my thigh a few minutes later.

And afterwards we were cuddling and there was music playing, and I can't remember the song but it was a guy singing, and he said, "I'm so in love with you," which made me exhale-laugh into her neck, which led to questioning of what I was thinking about, which led to hedging. Which eventually led to confessions of feelings.

I hope I never forget her reaction. The way she twisted around in my arms and looked at me. She put her hand on the side of my face and kissed me - so soft and intently - and then were her words, which only came afterwards.

She met my parents last weekend, albeit only while they were in the store. She was so nervous she trembled, but my mom loves her already.

I've been sick and cranky since then though. My stupid period. I'm not even bleeding yet. I shouldn't be this miserable. I bit everyone's head off at work on Sunday (did I really? I can't remember now), and then I was sick all Monday night. Tuesday I worked - wasn't scheduled to, but I am a sucker for extra hours - but I started to feel sick again at the end of my shift. Meghan made me sit down, and she tried to make me drink tea. When I wouldn't, she took me out back and made me sit on the curb with her, and she rubbed my back.

Last night she told me to come over if I got out of work early enough. I got out at nine, which was early enough, so I went over and we cuddled on the couch for a couple of hours before moving into her bedroom. Poor thing had to be to work at eight this morning. I stayed curled up in her bed after she left. I found myself burying my face in her pillow every other minute. Smells just like her.

I need to clean up my apartment this afternoon. She's coming over for the couple of hours between the end of her shift and the beginning of mine. Ack. This place is such a mess. I think I'll do that after I get some more sleep though. Mmm.

(Also, because taikitten asked the other day, ( pictures. ))

SHE'S TRANSFERRING STORES. SO WE CAN BE TOGETHER.

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Mmm. We cooked out at my grandma's Saturday night. My grandma grills a mean steak, and my great-aunt is having an affair with Jose the mailman. In other words, it was delicious and we laughed a lot. Yes.

( Pictures of me with my parents. )

I'm supposed to be sleeping in my sister's room, right?

I can't get in. She fell asleep on the floor, and then she must have rolled over at some point - because she's sleeping against the door. And she sleeps too soundly for me to wake her up, and she's too heavy to push out of the way. Ahaha. Guess I won't be going to bed.

It's okay though. I've got a kitty in my lap, nuzzling my wrists, and she's actually letting me hold her for once. I'd venture to say the cat missed me.

[ETA: Oh, and I've apparently lost twenty pounds. I knew I was losing weight, but didn't know how much. And my breasts aren't shrinking! This is good.]

Or mine, anyway.

( There is something to be said for a pretty girl in a pretty dress. )

[ETA: ( More because she's too pretty to resist. )]