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I had a bunch of things about which I wanted to bitch, but

a) I just rhymed
b) I'm listening to Kylie Minogue
c) it's a beautiful day
d) I spent the morning afternoon with Meghan

and

d) my little sister just told me that I'm her hero.

ALSO:

I made Meg watch But I'm A Cheerleader the other night, and then we made out! Lesbians + kissing my girlfriend FTW. Yesterday was our six-month anniversary, and she's coming over after work tonight. I probably won't see her this weekend, but it's all right because next week is VACATION. Canada, then Aurora, with a detour into Kalamazoo along the way.

The bitching will have to WAIT.

My five favorite Ani songs (currently) (not in order):

1. So What
2. Independence Day
3. Swandive
4. Overlap
5. Manhole

An older woman, probably around 75 or 80, told me she felt sorry for me tonight because I had a table of seven preteen girls. I told her it was fine, and she laughed at me.

"Do you like being a waitress?" she asked me. When I told her that I love it, she smiled at me and said, "I loved it too."

I didn't mind the table of preteens though. I really feel like there aren't enough children in my life. I miss my sister (even though she'll be in high school next year, so she's not really a child anymore...), I miss my cousins and my step-cousins. The only time I see kids anymore is at work. I should be seeing the sister and the step-cousins in a couple of weeks though! They're all getting so big, and I miss them all so much. I don't say that nearly enough. Moving away has its perks, but sometimes I wonder if it's really worth it.

Things I need more of in my life: children, cats, old people, food I actually cook for myself, writing on paper/on the computer instead of in my head, a bottle of L'Occitane Cédrat Pomelo perfume, pretty shoes I can afford, kissing that lasts for longer than 15 minutes and doesn't lead to sex, JoAnna Lewis, e-mails to be returned after I send them, Bloc Party at very high volumes, my tax refund, car insurance, a dental appointment, sleep at a decent hour.

That's not so much to ask for, is it?

[ETA: Oh, and oral sex. The holy grail of my sex life.

I don't think I've ever admitted it in so many words, but in an ideal world, sex without oral would not exist.]

Luciana Carro, aka Kat on BSG, was on The L Word! At the beginning of the first season! She slept with Shane! Does this have anything to do with all of the BSG fic where she sleeps with women?

Oh man. I haven't posted about it, but I am LOVING the fourth season of TLW so far. I think it's the best yet. (Or maybe I only feel that way because the third season was so sucktastic? Who knows. Either way, I love it.)

Meghan and I both took this weekend off. We're going to Indy tomorrow night for dinner, and we're going to see A Night At The Museum on the IMAX. Tonight we're just chilling chez moi, playing Guitar Hero II and watching the first season of The L Word. My girl has good taste - she likes Alice! Also I've discovered that the first season really wasn't as bad as I thought it was! It's actually pretty good.

Today's list:

My five current favorite fictional characters (not in order, except for the first):

1. Maud Lilly (Fingersmith)
2. Alice Pieszecki (The L Word)
3. Florence Banner (Tipping the Velvet)
4. Sarah Dowling (Patience and Sarah)
5. Addison Montgomery (Grey's Anatomy)

I am obsessed with making lists of currents lately.

My current five favorite songs (not in order):

1. Plans -- Bloc Party
2. Hit 'N Run -- HorrorPops
3. Get Me Away From Here, I'm Dying -- Belle & Sebastian
4. Silver Road -- Sarah Harmer
5. Bad Education -- Tilly & The Wall

My current five favorite things about Meghan (not in order):

1. The way her hair smells
2. Her lower lip
3. Kissing her neck
4. How cuddly she is while she's still half-asleep
5. The way she understands after we have A Talk

My current five favorite milkshakes at work (not in order):

1. Mint chocolate with cookies and cream (and "real" ice cream)
2. Caramel apple (with frozen yogurt)
3. Raspberry (with frozen yogurt)
4. Peanut butter with peanut butter cups
5. Cheesecake

My current five favorite places to be kissed (not in order):

1. Under my ear.
2. On my hips.
3. On my lips.
4. Down my spine.
5. On my shoulder.

And so on and so on. I've been making lists in my head about EVERYTHING. It's kind of ridiculous. That being said... what other lists should I make?

Life = good.

a.) Fatimeh! You undeleted! And I still can't contact you directly! Where the fuck are you?

b.) A woman at work welcomed me "to the family" today. I am now OFFICIALLY a lesbian! Also, yay for the gossip mill.

c.) This was going to be a longer entry, but Meghan just called me from work. She gets off in a little bit, and then we're spending the night at her place, and she pointed out that I could see her sooner if I met her at the store instead of waiting until she gets out. Sooner = yay.

I hate today, and I hate my period, and - I was going to say that I hate being a girl, but that's not true. I just hate being one of those girls.

Who needs emotions anyway?

I told myself I was going to get up and shower twenty minutes ago, but here I am. Still sitting here. I think after I do shower, whenever that happens, I'm going to go to Steak n Shake and see who's working tonight. I'm not sure what I'm going to do after that. I don't want to be alone right now, but I also don't want to subject anyone to my company. Hanging out with sad people sucks, and I'll just end up feeling like more of a jerk. Whatever. I probably won't go anywhere, now that I think about it.

Anyway. julietcetera gave me the letter P a while ago. Therefore, a list.

Things I like beginning with P

1) people who make me laugh
2) pineapple pizza
3) Portia de Rossi
4) puzzles
5) Patricia the Stripper
6) PJ Harvey
7) pussy (I had to say it)

8) PAM BEESLEY. HOW COULD I FORGET?

First sentences meme:

And the new year begins fabulously. My French class is meeting in a computer lab today. Today is my 14 month anniversary with Kristin! I want to remember today for what it meant to me. I dreamed last night that I did a Google search for "Sammi" that lead me to someone from high school's journal. My sister just shouted, "Let the water heat up a little!" in her sleep. I'm back from California, but on my way to Aurora for the weekend. This being-friends-with-my-co-workers thing is sort of surreal. Guh. That girl turns me into a flailing, lovesick mess. I am currently laying on my new bed - well, new mattresses. Am sitting in Steak 'n Shake, two and a half hours early for my shift. Didn't fall asleep until almost 11 o'clock this morning.

Also? I've said it before and I'm about to say it again: my landlord is Trelawney. We were finally home (and awake!) at the same time tonight, so I was able to pay my rent. And she acted like she didn't even know it was almost a week late! Plus the hair! The glasses! The bangles! I've never seen inside her part of the building, but I wouldn't be surprised if everything was draped in scarves and there was a crystal ball on every table.

[ETA: Oh, and a list. Things I've watched in the last month or so. All terribly behind everyone else, but if anyone is still interested...

BSG (S1)
The Office (S1)
Gilmore Girls (S1, S2)
Weeds (S1, S2)]

This is what I get for trying to clean my room: a lamp just fell on my head. *rubs* Ow.

Things to do today:

- laundry
- grocery shopping
- bank
- finish my room
- shower
- crew meeting at 3

And I have to paint my nails. Ahaha. I've become such a girl. Weird.

Firefox 2.0, you are a bitch!

Recent would-be entries required filters. Firefox 2.0's Remember Password feature prevents the use of filters! Thus! No recent entries.

Things that have happened to me in the last two weeks: threesome, sexual harassment, one month anniversary of first "I love you"s, spraining of the ankle, stomach flu, firing of co-worker, very nice paycheck, five am trip to Wal-Mart to purchase board games, small gathering at my house, Meghan agrees to let me transfer, getting drunk for the first time, playing truth-or-dare while drunk, kissing four of my friends as a result of said drunken truth-or-dare, finding out all of my friends want to sleep with me, two month anniversary of first "I like you"s, co-worker tells Meghan she thinks I have a crush on her and that if Meghan ever "went for women" we'd be the hottest couple ever.

Things that will happen to me in the next twelve hours: sex with the redhead herself for the first time in three weeks!

The girl is not going to know what hit her. I have had way too much attention from other people and not enough from her. My aggressive side is coming out tonight!

- rent lake house
- have her teach me to water ski
- Europe
- Aruba
- surfing in California
- moving to Texas
- own hot tub
- laying on the beach at night
- go dancing
- see Meghan in a bow tie
- see Meghan play soccer
- live in NYC
- Mardi Gras

Fuuuuuuuck. I don't know what I'm doing.

But! This can be remedied.

Urgent Things I Need To Do

1. drink water
2. sleep
3. shower
4. pick up my car from Jen's
5. go to class
6. write my paper for R153
7. check in with my partner for my project
8. go to work

Important Things I Need To Do

9. write a thank you letter to my aunt
10. clean my room
11. buy a bag of oranges
12. clean my car
13. take things to the recycling center

Okay. Now. This is manageable.

[ETA: What is wrong with my mother? She doesn't bring me half the things I actually want, but she brings me my stuffed animals? That I've had put away for years? (Clearly I just started to unpack the boxes she brought.)]

This has been going around on MySpace, but it's worthy of a meme over here too.

I was going to attempt this with all Ani lyrics, but I realized that I'd be writing to twenty people I'm either angry at or in love with (or used to be in love with), which... didn't work. So. The Ani-less version.

Twenty Nineteen things to twenty eighteen people whose identities I will not reveal, not even upon bribery. Well possibly upon bribery. I'm a sucker that way.

( Liiiiist. )

I love -

Elizabeth Elmore's vocabulary, "we couldn't see what was coming" (followed by amaaaazing guitar and drums), not using my voice on my voice mail greeting, my Fear No Art bag from the MCA (Chicago), recurring strangers, the half-laugh half-snort the girl at the bank did when she saw me come in yesterday, the clock tower on the Student Building, winning stuffed animals out of the crane machine, running errands, people who smile at the laundromat, certain Madonna songs, having the same professor multiple times, French phonetics, not having furniture, driving down Sare Rd in the middle of the night, seeing deer in peoples' front yards, my neighbors the llamas, my neighbors the horses, the way I can see the stars from my back porch, this picture of Emily Haines, death by flirtation

My three-day plan.

Day 1. Go to bed!
Day 2. Go to class!
Day 3. Go to Illinois!

[ETA: Hee. Isn't my plan aesthetically pleasing the way each day's thing-to-do gets progressively longer?]

I could not sleep after work last night, so I said to hell with waiting until the morning to drive to Illinois, I'm going to drive to Illinois now. (And then I spent an hour and a half throwing songs onto a driving playlist.)

I love the fact that I grew up in Illinois. You know why? Everything else is SO exciting in comparison. I mean, I don't know many people who would be as starry-eyed as I was, driving through
Indiana at five-thirty in the morning.

I saw a lake/campgrounds, nestled in the crook of highway interchange. There was the lake itself, which looked more like a pond, and then a dozen or so campers parked around the edge of the water. Then there were soybean fields. And the highway. And a gas station on the other side of the road. Oh god, can you imagine growing up with that as your vacation every year? Yay, pond. In the middle of nowhere. Fifteen feet from cars going upward of 70 MPH.

I'm tempted to attempt to write a story about this.

Other points of interest about the songs that came up on my iPod

- "all the ways your fingers would find me" is the hottest lyric ever - ever!
- Cradle and All followed by Shy? most amazing original line-up ever
- Yuri-G is apparently a love song to the moon! all the more reason to love it!
- must fight the urge to start describing people as being "all la-di-da"
- Time Running + wheel drumming = OTP!
- Right In Time never fails to put a goofy, sappy smile on my face

And you are all saved from my bullet points of doom because my mother is ready to go to the bank now.

I love campus. It's such a gorgeous day.

I love -

sitting outside the library at the little tables near the food court exit, having a tan (however subtle), chocolate chip pancakes, the gayness of Bloomington, surviving on clementines, South Harrell Road, the first season of Sports Night, the rain smell in my room for days after a storm, the way Sarah Howell's voice cracks at the thirteen second mark on Worship, good tippers, strawberry shortcake, eating finger food with a fork and a knife, my new default icon, finally unpacking all of my things, listening to other people talk, spoiling trainers, the three korean guys talking at the table next to me, summer breezes, songs where the singing starts before the music, not being sick to my stomach even though it's that time of the month, saying hello to people who walk by and having them smile at me, forgetting that Sam and Brooke are not canon, having a good Anya voice, wanting to go slowly, remembering to take my vitamins, happily jumbled emotions.

Things That Happened This Weekend

• Got smacked in the face with a purple dildo (not while having sex).
  
• Harry Potter handed me his mic in the middle of The Wrath of Hermione.
  
• Harry Potter forgot to take his mic back after he handed it to me in the middle of The Wrath of Hermione.
  
• Got laughed at by my Linguistics AI, who was a little to the left and behind me during the show.
  
• The girl across the hall was gone all weekend. :))))
  
• Got smacked in the face (with a hand) (while having sex).
  
• Watched the first four episodes of Big Love. A++
  
• Kristin tried DDR for the first time.
  
• Finished watching the third season of Arrested Development. :((
  
• Overheard an intriguing fight between a girl down the hall and her boyfriend. She was drunk and asking for another man. He was crying.

I can't think of anything else at the moment. Oh! A girl tried to cheat off of me in Linguistics on Thursday. I wonder what's going to happen to her test.